From blog to book
Four months
Since I started this blog, I have gained an incredible amount of support from readers all over the world. I don’t know how I will ever thank all of you for checking in and writing the wonderful letters that you send. This blog was born out of love, and continues to be sustained by love. I dedicate all that I write on here to Rusty. Your comments, your thoughts, share that dedication. I believe that wherever Rusty is right now, he continues to see, to read, to love.
Since Rusty died, a couple of publishers have expressed interest in helping me develop this blog into a book. I’ve put aside the idea for a while, because it was something that I didn’t feel ready to commit to. I did try. I started by editing some of my earlier entries, adding in details and depth where I felt I skimmed, or failed to develop an idea fully.
It was a disaster. Rusty had been dead for only two months. I could barely look at the screen.
Two months later, I’ve started working on a foreword for my book. There are so many memories to go through. We have thousands of e-mails, letters, cards we wrote to each other. I will try. I don’t know when I will finish this book, but it will be my anchor to all that I feel right now. Since I started writing, I have thought of little else. If I am not writing as often on here, know that I am writing elsewhere, in a manuscript I hope to get published some day.
September 3rd, 2007 at 8:44 pm
At least through the book, memories of him will last for a long time to come, if not forever.
He won’t be forgotten.
*hugs
September 3rd, 2007 at 8:48 pm
Congratulatons - I think. I look forward to reading your book. Sounds like you’re off to a good start.
Much Love…
September 3rd, 2007 at 9:28 pm
I like what you have so far. I would read it.
September 4th, 2007 at 12:38 am
I will buy it when you get it published.
September 4th, 2007 at 8:29 am
That is fantastic.
I don’t believe that everything happens for a reason. I think instead that things both awful and wonderful happen, and it is our task to take action that gives them meaning. You’ve already succeeded in that task by writing this blog…now, with a book, hopefully you’ll reach even more people who will benefit from your incredible insights into life and death and love. I’m sure Jesse is proud of you.
September 4th, 2007 at 4:38 pm
Congratulations! You ARE moving on, as I surmised - and in such a beautiful, meaningful way. The book will be a tribute to Jesse, yes, but more than that it will document the trials and agonies of your life together that has led you to a space where it is clear that Love never dies - it conquers death and will sustain you forever …
Huge Hugs,
Bodhi
September 5th, 2007 at 12:37 pm
This is such a great idea. I can’t wait to read it! And I am sure that you will be helping a lot of people by getting it out there
September 5th, 2007 at 4:31 pm
I was going through my bookmark and I don’t know how I came to have your blog on my bookmark, but my deepest condolences. Death at times is just a new beginning and we all have to go through it eventually. The bright side now is at least Jesse no longer needs to suffer all the pain. The love both of you share is just truly inspiring. God bless.
September 5th, 2007 at 10:06 pm
I can’t say better and I feel exactly the same thing even after 12 years of lost: “To remind myself that in the eye of our storm resides a constant good love and that we should all be so lucky to experience one instance of an unchanging love in an ever-changing world”. You express so perfectly human love… Look at you and Jesse in the mirror and you will see me and Hwee How as reflection…
September 7th, 2007 at 2:14 pm
Please reserve a copy for me.
September 7th, 2007 at 3:10 pm
I hope to own a copy of the finished work. It will be a beautiful testament to the love shared by two beautiful(and lucky) people.
September 10th, 2007 at 4:19 pm
I am glad you are beginning to work on your book, Yen. A love as beautiful as you and Jesse’s should be shared with the entire world. You are an inspiration.
Much love,
Laurie
September 13th, 2007 at 10:24 am
I am thrilled to hear about the book. We have so few amazing stories of love to show those coming after us about what real life can bring and how we survive. I look forward to reading it and introducing others to it. It will indeed be a magnificent tribute to the “Two Lucky People” I have met here through your blog.
Best wishes in the continued journey.
Kev
September 16th, 2007 at 9:59 pm
All the best on this wonderful project of yours. Take care
October 2nd, 2007 at 9:11 pm
yen, i’m so incredibly proud of you!
November 26th, 2007 at 8:42 pm
Really amazing stories. I can feel your true love toward your Jesse. Jesse will be remembered forever thanks to the book you are writing. Yen, I will look forward to buying the book in a bookstore soon. Take care…