The sea
It feels impossible not to love the sea. Or to own it, somehow, if I could.
I have always loved it, since I was little. Some of my fondest memories were created to the cadence of the ocean lull. The first boy I ever kissed, I kissed next to the sea.
I am enamoured of its magnitude, its timelessness. What secrets hide beneath those rolling, giant waves? Whose messages of hope, love and despair does it carry to shore?
Standing by the sea, in front of this infinite, with my poor feet, and my stiff heart, I have been judged and found wanting.
Like the poet who must learn to carry his voice above the hurling waves, I, too, must learn to expand my heart to fill its cries. I must learn the sea´s patience. Lately, I have often opened my eyes to find myself in a dark and terrible place.
And so I fall into the sea´s arms, reaching and pulling my body into its watery embrace. I try to stand, but decide it is okay not to.
The sea is a stern parent, its children the rippling froth scurrying to shore. The arms of the sea are strong, muscular.
I can taste salt in my mouth. I can feel sand in my underwear. And the sun, the sun, the sea´s glorious, magnificent playmate.
March 2nd, 2007 at 2:09 pm
This is beautifully written, I can almost feel the sun on my shoulders.
But Yen, are you alright? I am concerned. All of this has to be so hard on you, such a load to carry. You are a wonderful man, but even the strongest among us need help sometimes. I hope and pray that you have someone to turn to during this frightening time.
Till then, hugs to you dear man and healing thoughts your way for both of you.
March 3rd, 2007 at 7:40 pm
Laurie, your posts and consistent care in my life have given me so much consolation in difficult times. You have such a big heart and I am so glad we met. I am glad that Nick has you to care for him too. I hope he is doing all right.
March 3rd, 2007 at 10:50 pm
I am very glad we met too, Yen. I hope you know I am here for you in any way I can be. You are a wonderful person and I’m honored to know you. I haven’t heard from Nick, yet, but I’ll let you know when I do.