A comfortable home
When Rusty came home last night, I was already asleep. At midnight, I felt him crawl into bed with me, and his warm body. He was having another fever. By dawn he had sweat through three T-shirts. His fever finally broke at 7am. He is now sleeping in the living room, where it is cooler.
Our breakfast is waiting in the fridge.
Part of getting use to life back in New York is getting use to being a full-time care-giver again. I cook, clean, make sure the apartment is sanitary and try to give Rusty a comfortable home. Every day, there are almost 40 pills in the morning to get ready, temperatures to watch out for, gods to pray to at night.
This relative opulence of the apartment is nice, and in some ways is a perfect metaphor for our life. Every expense is an investment for the future we must live now. The cancer may rob our future, but it will not hijack our present.
In the meantime, anyone care for a dance?
Soundtrack
Sing Me A Swing Song (And Let Me Dance), by Ella Fitzgerald
December 15th, 2006 at 7:17 pm
Glad you are back.
December 15th, 2006 at 11:36 pm
i love the house, babe!
I am starting my new temporary career as a caregiver - L had her op on thursday. She’s not in very good shape. I think I’m only now starting to imagine how crucially important it is to have giddy morning conversations, cuddles and warm breakfast.
Hugs to J…
December 16th, 2006 at 10:47 pm
Is that your place in the earlier photo.. the one with the red wall? Nice!
December 17th, 2006 at 12:44 am
Hey there,
Was wondering who Yen Feng is. Glad to know that you’ve settled down well over there with Jesse.
Cheers and things can only get better.
Derek
December 20th, 2006 at 2:47 pm
Hi, could you tell me how you fixed your problem with the audio plugin?
http://www.1pixelout.net/?page_id=34&cp=137#comments
Thanks for your help!
December 25th, 2006 at 10:56 pm
It’s good to see you and Jesse finally settled back in NY, the city you two first met. And it looks like the apartment is turning out real nice, from the pictures that you are posting on this blog.
Cherish each and every moment that you are having together (and the many more you will be having in the days to come).
December 26th, 2006 at 3:00 pm
Thanks for dropping in Lilian, and for your kind words. Happy holidays!
December 27th, 2006 at 8:30 am
I’ll dance
December 27th, 2006 at 12:19 pm
*puts on the music*
April 26th, 2007 at 10:27 pm
[…] Lately, I’ve been feeling pretty weak and tired, but honestly, I can’t complain. Mornings are the best - Yen makes me breakfast while I watch black trannies tear at each others’ wigs on Jerry Springer (My staple of trashy US morning TV, though I do flip to the BBC to come up for oxygen on occasion). Coffee and rice krispies cereal crisping in cold soya bean milk from Chinatown - you just can’t beat it. […]