Towards a new life
Anniversary special
I am gearing up to leave in two weeks. There are air tickets to confirm, bags to pack, but it seems impossible to get anything done with so much work in the way. At the end of the day, this is what matters to me: That after a difficult year apart, Rusty and I are finally going to live together. This life ahead of us, at least for the next six months, will be everything we’ve worked towards in these short two years. The New York apartment we put our names to will be our first, real home.
I emphatically reject the tyranny of this cancer. In this new life, I don’t want any more sleepless nights. What fear I have, I must learn to replace with hope. I must remember that this journey is a marathon, and that when I am weary, I can ride on love to keep going.
A year ago, I said:
Let our love guide you through these times, Rusty. Draw from me the strength you need to press on. Look into the future and know that there exists for us a beautiful life together. Take my hand and walk with me. I love you.
Soundtrack
I’ve got my love to keep me warm, by Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong
November 29th, 2006 at 11:04 pm
You got it right, baby. Your thoughts have power. Your strength and courage can only serve to bolster Jesse’s. I’m excited for you guys…you have good things to look forward to.
December 15th, 2006 at 10:08 pm
[…] This relative opulence of the apartment is nice, and in some ways is a perfect metaphor for our life. Every expense is an investment for the future we must live now. The cancer can rob our future, but it will not hijack our present. […]
December 16th, 2006 at 2:07 am
Helen: Thanks for being so supportive. It’s good to be back.
January 17th, 2007 at 2:40 pm
[…] In the last days, we’ve invited more furniture to join us at home. There is Juan, the Mexican yucca cane plant we picked up at Home Depot. The two handsewn tibetan pillow twins from down the street, and From Red, a multi-media print (my anniversary gift to Jesse) we’ve hung above the couch who, by the way, is really starting to loosen up. […]
April 26th, 2007 at 10:33 pm
[…] What Yen does to this place literally sets my soul at ease. I am now ready to take a nice, long afternoon nap. This apartment, this home, it’s my paradise. […]