Money can buy us time
If not for this bond, I could move to New York with Rusty and look after him there. For now, this is not an immediate concern. In a few days, my company will likely approve my application for a six-month leave of absence. But what after that? In recent weeks, discussions between Rusty and myself to find creative ways out of this financial impasse have turned more serious. Certainly, it is a sensitive and complicated subject. Is $500,000 worth what time is left to spend with your loved one?
Our objective is simple enough: We work towards a life together in New York as soon as feasible. But whether or not we proceed, if and when we are financially able to do so, almost seems a separate matter. As far as I am concerned, this is something that gives him a reason to fight and live. Money may not buy happiness, but it can buy time. For the countless people who are sick and cannot afford medicine, tests and specialist doctors, money is - at the very least - their best shot at happiness for the time being.
There are not enough answers for the questions that lie ahead. It is not so much that I am afraid of leaving here, but of what is to come. Every day, I wake and convince myself that I am strong enough to take this on. But I am not so persuasive all the time.